Am I just being sensitive.. or needy

Igght, it's 9:43 am, and I've received all of two personal phone calls this morning. This is above average on a scale of everyday living when I'm at my job. But, today is different. It's different because #1 I was up coughing half the night and decided to wait until it was after 12 midnight to go to sleep, just to see if anyone would call me or at least send an e-mail. Well, I got one e-mail last night, with the title, Happy Birthday Sunshine! I was like what the fuck- Who in the hell would be calling me sunshine? So, I open the e-mail and it's from some old ass man, who happened to see it was my b-day and sent me this tired ass card. Ain't this a bitch! Now, not to be ungrateful cause I mean I have yet to recieve cards from anyone else, although, I haven't checked my USPS mail yet. So, a brotha is feeling a little insignificant right now to say the least, not to mention I'm coughing up my lungs and just want someone to come and rub my head and hold me.

So, anyway, you would think for someone who really never celebrated his birthday(my family doesn't celebrate holidays), this wouldn't be a big deal! But today, it is. I don't know if I'm just being sensitive or needy- but shyt, I was brought into the word 27 years ago today, and you mean to tell me that only two people hold that as something siginificant. And everyone wonders why I'm single. Well, for all the brothas and sistas hollering they so into me, feeling me, want to be with me, why ain't none of yall calling me? Or shyt, at least send an e-card-- anyway I'm all in my feelings.. and shyt I guess I am being sensitive and needy and that's why I'm single....

Well, you know where single gets me, right? It gets me to go and do some shyt for myself tonight. No need to worry or even think if someone else is going to suprise me with something. So, unlike when I was turning 12 and just sent out inviatations and made my moms give me a party, she was one mad bitch that year- and it's my mama so i can call her a bitch you can't!!! Tonight, I will go out and have my own party, treat myself to my own celebration and maybe just maybe even invite someone else, although only two peeps called me this morning to wish my ass a Happy anything!