Wednesday, March 28, 2007

New Beginnings

When one door opens, opportunity has a way of coming through the window- or sometimes theres a knock on the door so hard that it scares you- you jump out of ur skin and ur get a grip on reality-- the reality is that I wasn't happy and I wanted to be happy- wanted to be free and so I'm seeking refuge in the nation's capital.

Watch out 4 me.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Where Do I go from here

Ok, where do i go from here?
i'm unemployed, yep, quit, nah---- resigned from my job
in order to maintain my sanity
i cried when i left
looking at my desk bare
nothing there as a testiment to what i'd accomplished
i looked at the walls
no pictures there anymore
i looked at the floor and there was dirt n hurt
n it was time for me to go
so i said good bye
in order not to hide my discontent
with this arrangement that had been my life for the past two years
my relationship, my lover, companion and friend
paper clips, paper, staples, and shyt..
and now nothing,..
what i'm i supposed to do now..
where do i go...?
where i sit in front of my computer
n type
n witness the sight
of naked men
and titties
and pussy
& cum
running... i've stopped runnning... now i can catch my breath and look & see if there is any foresight
cause damn..
i'm not running anymore.. for 1st in my life.. i can breathe but i still cant see the forest from the trees
betrayed in hindsight,,... too blind to see the light... but hey i got the might
with my life n front of me
resume enhanced
no glasses, no lens... just my pain...
a dream washed, maybe away...
cause what i thought i was i am not...
cant get it on
cant get the gig.. so i ran to the gin... and than beer, and wine, and vodka, and rum