Random Thoughts (Follow-up)

I'm clicking my shoes three times because there's no place like *home*- I finally moved into my new apartment and thankfully a brotha is feeling a lil bit better than last week

- the issues are still coming up and I'm busting into tears at different times during the day but the good thing is I'm taking care of myself-

At any rate, my weekend was stressful but went well- I think I'm going to take a break (again) from some of the "g life" clubs and bars especially after getting way too much exposure at the "G parade" this Sunday- that shyt was a Hot Ass MEss!!!! Nah, a shitty mess!! I must be one of the most sheltered but not sheltered people out there because I had to try and stop my mouth from dropping many many many times looking at some of that craziness---

After the crazy ass parade where I ran into Darkandslender, who surprisingly introduced me to OldbutBuffasHell, I hit the beach for a minute to get a plate of food and a few drinks and then went home to change, picked-up Sweetness and departed from Navy Pier on the "g life" cruise, which was suprising as well- but not in a crazy way- Although I haven't seen that many bold lesbians in my life- I thought Sinead O Connor & Me'Shell NdegéOcello were the only bald head women running around- Boy was I wrong!!!

At any rate, the 3 1/2 hour cruise was interesting especially since it was supposed to be 4 1/2 hours- But at any rate, saw my first gay wedding on the cruise, which wasn't much- but almost brought a tear to my eyes- danced a few dances with Buff, talked, ate, laughed, with Sweetness- who everyone thought was the mother of the bride- Too damn funny..

Yesterday, worked all damn day, went home to move a few things than back to work for a Meeting and then back home to move more stuff- also, figured out yesterday that I'm just fucking crazy-- ain't got a bit of since- I'm way too emotional- and as my mentor told me when I was 19, "your way too emotional for any man to deal with- your going to drive any man crazy" well that's probably true- like some peeps say damn you want what women want everything- maybe that's true- love, security, someone to love me no matter what, a house, kids, a dog, a career, a spouse with a career- yeah I want it all

However, I'm not a woman, not bad as a woman, don't even want to be a woman- I'm worse than a woman- and that's some crazy shyt.....