Torn

Yo, so two of the three have really set themselves apart in my rainstorm- Jamacain is really putting the smack down and last night he stayed over again and were supposed to see each other tonight. Man when I sleep with this cat, I don't want to get up. I want to lay within his arms.. and he wants to lay in mine.. This morning I got up to get in the shower.. I'm in the bathroom brushing my teeth and he comes in and just kisses me, I got a mouthfull of tooth paste and he's just kissing me.. I'm like damn that's hot!!! Then he brushes his teeth and ask me if he can take a shower with me.. I'm like of course.. and we get in the shower and he starts washing me up between kisses... I mean dude is so affectionate although I think he might be a little crazy!!! LOL... Last night, dude called hisself playing wit me but we were wrestling and dude grabbed me around my neck and I was like hold up......but he was like sorry dude and whats not.. than this morning he tried to give me a HICKY!! and I'm like yo not on my neck cause that's unprofessional! And he's like how bout here or here or here.. between kisses.. and I told him no HICKIES at all! He was like oh I can't mark my territory but you can kiss me in the club marking yours and I was like oh shyt, dude done peeped my card... But I was like yo, you can give me one but no where were it can be seen.. he's like oh so other dudes aint going to get mad if I put a hicky on you.. I'm like I'm single..I don't answer to nobody.. so don't worry bout that.... we stood there staring at each other for a minute and then it happened again.. it being that feeling that we can't keep our hands/ mouths off each other... dude started kissing me again and rubbing on my body and he said he loves my body the way it feels... the way i am... he likes me.... so Jamacain is definetely still in the running....

BUT

Younging at giving up to easy. This morning he returned my phone call from yesterday and he wants to see me today but I already have plans with Jamacain so I made plans to hang out with him tomorrow after I hit the gym and of course work like a Hebrew slave.... But, Younging and I had a brief but good convo- he talked about how he hated missing my call yesterday and that he really wants to see me... he also talked to Musclebod and dude is sweating him, he feels bad cause now he likes me and I was like dude we are all grown..I had to return to work but told dude I would call him when I go to lunch of after 5.... I can hear it in his voice he wants me.......LOL.. and it's nice to be wanted..

ALSO

Last night Jamacain asked me what are we....???

And I was like were dating.. getting to know one another.... you know...

.....aint that something...???