Monday, December 11, 2006

Dazed and Confused

Lately, I've been bored, dazed, and confused.. Dating CuteandShort has been so different from dating a guy.. it's kinda like dating myself.. she wants a phone call everyday, a kiss, and a hug, some me time.. likes to talk for hours and hours... it's straight up crazy.... and it's like honestly she got a brotha a little scared cause I know me, if I know anyone and the whole bisexual thing is like major complicated cause I don't know if I could never "mess" with another man again.. like if I get with CuteandShort... and I don't even know that that's what she's looking for.. it's like sometimes she's like well you got to be my man and than we had a conversation and she was like that she didn't think that we should have sex with other people until we had sex with each other and I was like i don't think were on that level yet.. oh yeah and why did I feel guilty after dicking down ThatDude.... and I won't even waste too much blog time on that situation cause I honestly think that I'm going to tell Dude, we can only be friends... I mean he's just not really showing me the kind of attention that I need and I saw him out a few times and I just don't think we want the same things... it's like he says he wants some of the same things that I do but his behavior doesn't show me that.. and right now I'm very much in a show me state of mind... so, it will be what it will be... he did have some good booty though- although he lied about not getting fucked.. cause he was doing tricks.. and people who ain't used to getting fucked don't know tricks like that shyt he be trying to do....

Well other than my crazy life/sex/crazy life... Emotional has been good.. been working out... trying to eat right.... and just trying to do my favorite past time and that is getting some SLEEP!!!

So, other than that just counting the days until I go on vacation.... which is like 10 working days and in between those ten working days I have alot of things to finish up on and I decided to close my office down during that time... well at least it will be closed for several hours... Office Hours will be 9:00am-1:00pm instead of 9:00am-5:00pm because I'll be on the east coast visiting family and friends and I just don't trust my office to be open ALL day when I'm way out somewhere else... less shyt can go down if it's only open for half a day.....

And of course I will be calling in twice a day and won't really be on vacation until I go skiing in 2/07...

Damn that scary it's fitten to be 2007- that's so crazy to me... but I'm sure I'll be around to see 2020 and beyond and I will be saying the same.. "that is so crazy"...

4 comments:

Ladynay said...

Man that's alot. Sounds like yall (you and her) need to let each other exactly what the deal is and go from there.

Honey-Libra said...

You got a lot going on LOL...funny how you think you want something from someone then you realize that you really don't know what you want...I'm like that sometimes..think I don't want to be with a guy then realize that hmm maybe I do...ah well...that's life LOL

I love sleep, wish I were doing it now

LUVIN ME said...

I hope it all works itself out in your favor.

blkbutterfly said...

isn't that always the way? a person talks a real good game, but rarely does he/she show and prove. all you can say is next! and keep it moving.

i agree w/ the others. you and C&S should have a chat about expectations and all of that. it's always nice to have clarity.